ho...well..

no classes again.. ^_^

urrmm... ala lng..

we should be brave enough t face our fears.. no need to use other names or to hide names if your brave enough...

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all i can say is i HAD been a BIG STUPID for not noticing the BIG world.. i had been stupid bacause i let myself dance in a small world.. samall world in havoc... where all things that are there are meant to be ruined... i failed to notice that there's a big world where all things are made to be cherised..

those fairies from that big world (which is more likely a big paradise) came to took me in their place and now i'm leaving that small unlikely world...

but it's hard to leave coz i'm starting to love chaos(a BIG JOKE dude!)
i like to leave..

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the man and the butterfly

someone said he will die if someone will keep distance from him.. but he will not die if the butterfly that keeps on following him will stop and will keep distance from him.. he said he will do anything just to have that someone back but not the butterfly.. why keep on insisting to someone whom you don't deserve? why not just pay attention to those who is willing to be with you?

he didn't gave attention to the butterfly.. the butterfly found a new world and forget about him.. but he didn't gave attention to the butterfly.. but time passed he realized that thatn someone was not the one he needed because he didn't know that the butterfly was what he needed..

but he can't have the butterfly back because the butterfly had found a beautiful paradise (what the butterfly really deserves)..

they said that the man don't have anymore the right to have the butterfly back because he had not learned to love that butterfly.. he is not worthy to have the butterfly because he took it for granted...

*end*

if someone find a grammatical error in the article---> don't mind it.. coz i'm not good in grammar.. and i'm in a hurry..

"there is no need for an outpouring of words to explain oneself to a friend. Friends understand each other's thoughts before they are spoken."-by Susan Polis

someone tagged this to me... thanks! but i can say that it's not true to me.. yes in some cases.. sometimes,no.. most of the times if I feel happy bout someone I don't show them that i am happy instead i show them that i'm angry or sad... when i'm sad, i show people that i'm very happy.. reverse psychology ayt?! that's why i'm telling you it's really hard to determine what my heart shouts pwera na lng kung gusto ko talaga iparamdam sa tao un...

i can say i do have different reactions and opinions that keeps me away from everyone that's why i really have to explain to them one by one, detail by detail...

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GROUND BREAKING

(ang panghugos -- Noli)

ala lng.. mei ground breaking xe ngeun dun sa church namin hehe...

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unexplainable..

lasr night i talk to someone from above... i felt different... sharing lng!
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last night...

beginning of a new story...

someone opened a new storybook.. i can see and i can feel na sa cover simple lng.. but i know when you open it maganda ang nilalaman..

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ang dating ako, ang bagong ako at ang laging ako..?

dati..

years ago... alam ng lahat kung ano ang nasa loob ko..

ngayon..

akala ng lahat alam nila ang nasa loob ko pro ang totoo hindi tlaga un ang nasa loob ko..

lagi..

masasabi ko na mahirap akong intindihin.. akala mo naintindihan mo pro marami ka png hindi naiintindihan..

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isang araw.. maynagtanong sa kin kung ano reaction ko sa isang pangyayari.. sbi nya "hindi ka nasaktan dun? sorry daw.." sbi ko "ha? hindi ah.. bahala na xa" sbi nya "bkit naman?" sbi ko "manhid na ako.."
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MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS..

dapat lng.. kaya nga un lang inaasikaso ko eh... kung gusto mo makisali bumili ka ng shares.. o kaya mag-invest ka.. (hehe.. no joke..(?))

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Mga lumalayong bagay, tao, mo ano pa man..

mei nagsabi na lumalayo na xa.. bka nman hindi nya tlaga kailangan lumayo, icpin mo na lng na wla un..

mei iba-ibang pananaw ang mga tao sa kanilang sariling buhay.. opinion nla ito kaya walang tama, walang mali.. kc opinion lng.. opinion--> nirerespeto yan..
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may dapat pa ba akong sabihin o may dapat pa b kayong malaman?

pkosabi lng.. maikli lng ang panahon..

"Learn to value other's time.."

shep

HARD TO BREATHE..

kanina pang umaga toh.. shep.. hindi na natanggal.. mas lalo pa atang lumala..

hindi ko maintindihan.. hindi ko alam... ewan...

pro kahit ganun, hindi pa rin nya ko pinapabayaan.. totoo un "when God closes a window he opens a door".. promise.. lagi kong nararamdaman pagkalinga nya sa akin..

ewn.. hindi nya ko pinapabayaan.. khit okei lng sa kin ng mag-isa ako laging mei dumarating na kakilala ko.. feel ko tuloy everytime na umuuwi ako ng mag-1 mei mangyayari(though possible naman tlaga un..) tas laging napipigilan ung masamang mangyayari xe mei pinapadala si God..

wait: masakit pa rin... ayaw talaga matanggal..



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PROM Postponed!

hay.. it was moved to march 4.. parang umaayon sa isang pangyayari.. hmm.. akin na lng un.. xtension nanamn b?

PROM ng EASTERN!

hay, ung public skul dito sa amin (Eastern high) prom mamya.. manood kaya ko? hehe.. ala lng.. pwede nman kc kahit cno manood kc dun lng cla sa covered court sa amin.. heehee..

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woah.. KUYA DON2x..

kanina sa skul pagkatapos ko mkipag-usap sa 1 clasm8 at 1 skulm8... pauwi na ko.. kasabay ko c izza xe la xa kasama.. tas nasalubong ko c kuya don2x.. hinahap c ate G... SHOCKS! pano nakarating sa pque yan?! hehe.. gulat ako.. and bilib rin ako xe pumunta pa xa dun sa sdkul pra lng kei ate G... wow! sayang kasi nkauwi na c ate G.. (magkaaway ata cla.. hmm.. LQ?!) eh lowbat xa.. la naman ako load.. naawa ako kaya pinahiram ko muna battery ko sa kanya.. hehe.. tas umuwi na ako.. heehee...


wait: cge maya na lng ulit cguro.. m not feeling well..

bakit part 2

BAKIT PART 2..

bakit mei mga taong makikitid ang utak?
bakit mei mga taong mahi;ig makialam sa buhay ng mei buhay? hindi ba cla contented sa buhay nila?

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PARA SA IYO

para sa iyo toh..
payong kaibigan lang toh..
tumayo ka sa sarili mong paa
kung matatag ka
lumaban ng mag-isa
hindi na kailangan maghanap pa ng iba
wag mong pakialaman ang di sa iyo

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iba na toh...

kapag cnabing la nang oras, paawat k na.. wag nang magpumilit pa.. kasalanan mo na tinanggihan mo toh nung una.. take the consequences....

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iba ulit...

kung gusto mo talagang maayos ang isang bagay gagawa ka ng paraan... hindi ka dapat pangunahan ng takot...
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iba na naman...

minsan la ka nang pakialam sa mga bagay2x.. pero pinapakialaman ka pa nito...
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iba...

wala nang pakialaman.. kung gusto mo ng kapayapaan..

BAKIT KAYA GANUN?

bakit ganun? sometimes, most of the time, always.. whaevahh.ople misunderstand you? can't i live normally? pwede bang pabayaan na lng nila ako?

bakit ganun, kung kelan mo gusto, ayaw nila at kung kelan ayaw mo na tsaka pa nila pinagpipilitan?

bakit ung iba hindi naman kasali, nakikisali? pwede bang humanap na lng sila ng sariling buhay nila?

bakit ung iba hindi marunong umintindi? pwede bang isipin nman nila kahit minsan ung nararamdaman ng iba?

bakit ung iba makasarili? pwede bang tigilan na nila ang pagiging manhid?

bakit ganun, naghahanap ka ng kapayapaan bibigyan k naman ng kaguluhan?

bakit ganun, kung kelan patapos na buhay mo at ayaw mo na, pahahabain pa?

ano ba ang dapat matutunan? ano ba ang dapat malaman?

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Hindi nyo alam kung ano ang meron ako.. hindi nyo ko naiintindihan... hindi kayo marunong umintindi.. la akong pakialam ano man ang gawin nyo.. basta't wag nyo lng ako pakialaman.. pwede ba?!

Kung mei gusto kang sabihin sa kin sasihin mo na agad..at baka hindi mo na ito masabi pa kahit kailan.. sinasabi ko sa yo, wag mo sayangin ang panahon na nandito pa ko.. kung alam nyo lng.. kung alam nyo lng kung anong meron..

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dapat kang matauhan.. ako natauhan na-->matagal na.. gumising ka, wag ka magpakabulag sa makasariling pag-iisip mo...

when you feel like a bullsh*t...

damn those people making others bullsh*t... you can do it.. i know you can... they can't bring you down... haha.. d ko gusto yung word na BULLSH*T..

okei ba?

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okay change topic...

when you broke a jar, you can't put the broken pieces back to its original shape.. right? friendship is like a jar, once you broke it, you can't bing it back together like what it like before..

WHY CAN'T I FORGET It EVEN THOUGH IF I DO REALLY REALLY WANT TO FORGET IT?! I DON'T WANT IT IN MY WAY!

duhurrr... know what?! i'm being open to my friends.. i tell them what i feel bout them and i confront them if i ever feel hurt or if i hurt them unintentionally...( i can't help it.. i hurt people UNINTENTIONALLY everytime they hurt me... ) i'm open coz i want them to be open to me..

i'm so tired... tired of saying sorry.. tired of being here.. tired of living... i even ask Him "whn will my mission end?" ... i know i'm near to my finish line... yes it's near.. i almost accomplish it but then He extended my race track.. why? what does He wants me to learn before i get to my end? i know He has intentions or maybe He changed my directions...

back to the broken pieces... nevermind..?

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i was ONLY EXPLAINING IT... I"m NOT OPENING the TOPIC AGAIN.. honestly i WANT TO THROW it.. so?

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STOP those synthetic butterflies from invading your paradise...
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angry? no...ata
mei hatred ba? ewan...
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thanks for being here...

hapee valentayns dei...

ano bang meron sa valentine's day??? ha? pwede nyo b sabihin kung ano?


tsk..

dis past 2 weeks.. soooper iba ata ako.. kasi kahit hindi ako dapat magsorry nagsosorry ako.. la lng..

la kami pasok ngayon SPECIAL LIBRARY WORK day daw.. kaya pla tambak ng school works...

grabeh may kasalanan na naman ako sa computer namin... nauninstall ko yung modem tapos hindi ko mainstall ulit kasi hindi na pwede ung cd installer ko sa bahay..

may flash media installer na pala ako.. thanks to tito Ronald... pero hindi ko pa naiinstall...

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enigmatic thoughts are back... i dunno why..

naguguluhan na naman ako.. ayoko na sana isipin at balikan yunng bagay na yun.. pero biglang pumasok ulit sa isip ko.. parang gusto ko tuloy ibalik un dati... pero hindi dapat...

dapat pinapahalagahan ang mga kaibigan kahit minsan hindi kaya ng friend mo na ibalik sa iyo ng taong yun...

masaya ako dahil mei mga friends ako...

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it's gotta be a long weekend... but a very busy weekend..
tomorow, punta kme sa bulacan.. sunday, mei lakad kme ni mama?, monday meeting sa social...


noh ba nangyare this week? hmm.. lam ko kahapon badtrip ako.. kasi nakalimutan kong isuot ung ribbon ko. incomplete uniform...

tpos isang buong week namin kinukulit yung isa naming friend na sumama sa prom.. pero ayaw niya talaga... =(

nakalimutan ko na..

mei friendster account pla ung RUBICON!! wooh.. addict! idol! tsk....

bout sa prom?!

hehe.. ayoko nga ata umattend dito! pero pinasama ako ni mama at ate..
heehee..
last day katext ko c kuya eric.. ala lng.. napag-uasapan kc namin ung prom.. ^_^

grabehgosh!!


ay nga pla.. ashtigg!! dame na bagong songs sa videoke namin.. hehe..^_^

@_@

ala lng.. mei bagong crew pla kme sa burger machine..

makulit.. patawa pro minsan corny.. graduate xa sa PNHS nung high school.. teacher nya dati c ninong nick ko.. hehe.. la lng..

normal day.. pro pumunta ung tito ko.. buti d nya ksama bagong asawa.. hmph.. (bad ko noh? coz can't take it..)

sa feb 10/11 punta kme bulacan.. 40th day xe ng pagkamatay ni tito dowell ko.. ala lng..

la ako load.. la nman katext eh.. heehee,,,

nope.. i DID it!

heehee.. ang grades ko!! OHMEEGOSH!!!@_@
wooohh... akala ko pamatay!!

d ko pa pla nkwkwento.. hmm... i'm running for secretary sa student council.. uy, hindi ak nag-volunteer,..! kinuha lng ako i Raissa 3-A.. m hapee coz mei trust xa sa kn..


malakas dw ung kalaban.. pro lam ko kaya yan, magtiwala lng sa sarili at sa isa't isa.. wag mamaliitin ang kapartida..


hmm.. nung una hindi ko pa alam kung cno campaign manager namin... pro nag-bloghop ako.. si ate SuSZiE pla.... ahh.. okei.. okei....

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mei mga tao na trato mo sa knila kaibigan pero di mo alam cla maglalaglag seu.. --- --- through the years you've been together you put all your trust to her not knowing that she's in disguise... friend mo xa.. bkit ka nya minamaliit? la pla syang tiwala seu.. ano tingin nya sa sarili nya? popular at ikaw hindi pra sa bagay n eun?? tingin nya ndi moh kaya?! gotta prove her that she's wrong.. trust urself.. pro wag kng mgalit... dpat nga masaya ka pa.. coz some1's trying to bring you down--it means na magaling ka...
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xenxa na sa ibang nakasulat dito....


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4 VIANNE:
ui. brue!!! hahaha.. tpos na ung racing.. result? wag muna tungin.. huhuhu.. okei ung race car ilang beses k tinry sa sala namin at sa platform sa school.. pro ung racing track total opposit! grr.. opposite direction sa wind tapos rough surface.. huhu.. wawa.. iyk.. kahiya..

bout sa expenses... don't ask.. bhala na..

eun lng..

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BaD 4 Me..

mi tito is planning to live in our house..
okei lng nung una..

pro.. san cla tmatutulog?.. dun pla sa room nmin ni ate.. ayaw ko wempre.. tas kme nla mama sama-sama sa sa isng kwarto.. tas ung kwarto pa nla mama mas mliit kesa sa kwarto nmin.. anu un?! hayy..

ang mas malala pa ung ksama nya ung bago nyang asawa.. i don't lyk her.. she's not lyk my tita na mabait and she doesn't even talk to us...

h8 it... =(

another missed opportunity

sayang... d ako nkaabot.. s nkapasa sa requirements.... pro i stil pray na maconsider.. goodness.. i rily want it.. i'm wiling to do it... woah... badly desperate...

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lang nag-tag.. bkt kya? hehe... wawa,,,...! iyak! huhuhu...